A New Dream

I dreamed last night that I was the new manager at the local grocery store. My hubby said maybe it's a sign from God. I'm gonna believe it's just indigestion. :)

Goals for my Life

Today I had the most wonderful day. I got to meet an friend of mine that I have known since college. She probably knows me better than most people; she's definitely seen me at my worst and my best. It takes a real friend to stick with you through it all. We went shopping for material and ate lunch together, with her daughter and her mom and dad. It was almost like old times. Her dad asked me if 17 years ago I could have imagined my life like this, and I had to say that I would not have. I don't think I'd even recognize the person I was 17 years ago.

And that got me thinking. I have decided that 3 hours in the car is exactly what I need every so often, maybe even once a month. I was thinking that for the last 8 years, I haven't really had any goals. I guess my goals if I had any were to make sure that I didn't totally lose it with my kids and to just make sure I made it through that day the best I could. And after awhile, that kind of living gets to be habit. It's like I stopped striving to become a better person, a better mom, a better engineer, a better wife, a better everything. And I don't want to get to the end of this year and think that I haven't gotten anywhere. That I'm no different than I was a year ago. (I am not saying that the last 8 years haven't been great. I've loved this time and I'm going to miss having my kids all to myself all the time. I just want to make sure I continue to grow and become who I'm supposed to be.)

So, I'm trying to set some goals. And I'm honestly afraid to write them down for fear that someone will try to hold me to them. :) But how I will I accomplish them if I'm even afraid to try? So, I have given up sodas for 90 days and I'm already on day 4. I'd like to spend time in the Bible every day. I'd like to exercise and be able to walk a half marathon with my hubby in April. I'd like to do something to make me better at my career, the one I had before kids and the one I'll one day return to. Does that mean grad school or just a class here or there? I haven't figured that one out.

It's been so long since I've thought about the future and where I want to be that just having a goal excites me. We'll see where this goes.

A Day that Changed our Lives

About this time, six years ago, I was wishing my baby boy would hurry up and get here. I was pacing around the hospital trying to make the contractions start up again. The doctors eventually gave me meds to make that whole process move faster. My hubby and I had gone to bed the night before and finally decided on a name. The contractions started about an hour later. (I think Mr T was just waiting for us to figure out what we could call him.) We headed to the hospital and I remember asking the midwife if this was really it. Around 2 in the afternoon, my pastor and his wife stopped by to check in on us. Our pastor prayed for us and during the prayer, I realized that this little boy was ready to be born. (I had an epidural so I wasn't in any pain.) Mr T was born about 30 minutes later. And what a joy he has been ever since. He loved to snuggle and cuddle when he was a baby and now he gives the sweetest hugs. He has such a tender heart and cares about other people's feelings. This morning, his sister gave him her birthday gift. It was a scarf she had made, and he just loved it. He wanted to call all his extended family at 7 this morning to remind them that it was his birthday. :)

Mr T, I pray that you always stay this sweet. I pray that you continue to learn and grow. That you will always have a tender heart and that you will use that tenderness to great and amazing things for God. I love you more than I can write or say. You give your dad, your mom and your sister so much to laugh about. You keep us from getting too serious about life. You make us stop and smell the roses. Just keep being you and you'll be alright.

Now I'm off to go buy groceries so that I can make Mr T his favorite meal: ham slice, yellow rice and mashed potatoes. :)